The Talk by Lady PJ

The Talk

Written by Philessa Hooks Jenkins

Aka Lady PJ

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11/4/2014 10:52:54 AM

How do I start?

I ask myself…

The beginning would be too far

The middle not quite far enough

Maybe I should just state the facts…

I love you but you leave me breathless

And not in a good way

Grasping for air and waiting to be saved

Wondering if the choice I have

Is the right one I’ve made

Longing for depth of affection

Loosing myself in oceanic waves of confusion

Trying to escape this mountain I’ve climbed

Over and over again in my mind

Dead tired and running out of time

Yet I find myself breathlessly

Standing by your side

Picking you up when you fall down

Waiting for that nibble of affection

I got a bad catch and if you were a fish

I would release you; let you go on the pull through

Yet, somehow I keep you

It’s a price to pay

And the bills add up

Frankly my darling I think you cost too much

There’s one thing you must understand

There was a return policy and I’m cashing in

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The Trophy Wife

The Trophy Wife

10/2/2014 3:51:59 AM

Written by Philessa Hooks Jenkins

aka Lady PJ

Copyright 2014

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I feel stuffed like one of those prized deer heads

 That men line their walls; with doting admiration

Senselessly seething with joy at such a wondrous accomplishment

I, the trophy, belittled by the thought or the intention

As if it gives me pleasure to lower myself to being a stuffed animal

I have not the slightest wish to be an ornament for any bodies’ wall

Why then would any women want to be labeled a trophy wife?

What value could that position give except low self-esteem over time?

A value comparable to a dead animals head hanging on some hunter’s wall

Ponder that...

You Cheated by Philessa Hooks Jenkins

YOU CHEATED!

10/7/2014 2:28:22 AM

Written by Philessa Hooks Jenkins

Aka Lady PJ

All Rights Reserved

Copyright 2014

Hatred and resentment

Yeah, I breathe that!

Especially the night you cheated

Now you act like it’s a relief

Because you’re junks been uploaded

To a new site

…I’m about to go off!

I don’t even think you know

This wound I carry in my soul

Because your selfish night

Hurt me so and every time

I look in your sons eyes

I see just one more time

You say I’m sorry

I forgive

You make me a promise

I listen with hopeful ears

You say I love you

I shed more tears

This hurt I carry

Is because you put it there

So stop the small talk

Let’s be real

If you want to be a man

In these streets

You can get the

H e double l out of here!

The window

The Window
by Philessa Hooks Jenkins
aka Lady PJ
9/19/2014
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Copyright 2014

There's an urge in me to cry
Be it for pride...
the killer of many teardrops I suppose
Now the crutch I lean on
Yet I mourn deep inside
Too afraid to hope that joy will come

This mask now I've adorned
And become til now we are one
I look in the mirror and it's all I see
Except the eyes... those eyes
they never lie

Confession Of The Heart

Confession Of The Heart

Written by Philessa Hooks aka

Lady PJ

Revised 8/22/2014

Copyright 2005

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I hope that, in me, you see a heart that beats for you; your true admirer.  You are my sun; the light that consumes the darkest days.  My love shall never end nor fade for I am committed to you this day and forever.  I surrender now to you my sun.

I try but fail in your presence to express the depth of my emotion for fear that you’ll turn away from me.  I then turn into a paraplegic standing in your mist motionless and overcome by a desire to express but in the end I’m left with moments forever lost. 

I pray now that you see the desire that beams from my eyes and feel my love with every touch we share together. …Then my love will you know without hesitation that I am yours completely and forever!

I give you now this smile, my simple gift, to express my rejoicing for this moment that we now share.  It may be of little significance to you but to me it means so much more, its life sustaining. 

I leave you now with the knowledge that my joy cannot be defined in a single poem or a song, it can only be expressed and felt with every emotion that lives inside of me.  I’ve now given that from my heart to you.

We're through!

We’re through!

Written by Philessa Hooks Jenkins

Aka Lady PJ

Copyright 2014

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Tuesday, June 03, 2014

We’re through!

My dismay shows on my face

Like brightly colored rainbows

And neon signs

Because my mind is energized to define

Things in real-time with my mind’s eye

I don’t sugar coat the obvious

I take a note of what bothers me

Write it down and see it through

Like a forensic scientist

So I don’t state what’s wrong

All those crappy things you’ve done

But the face!  It’s not expressing love to you

It’s like a sign saying, “Hell yeah we’re through!”

Didn’t know you needed it posted on Facebook

Or tweeted on twitter, you social whore

I feel yeah

But just in case you didn’t catch my dismay

We’re done, today, tomorrow, and any other day.

My Surroundings

My Surroundings

Written by Philessa Hooks Jenkins

Aka Lady PJ

Monday, June 16, 2014

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Copyright June 9, 2014

“Enjoy your surrounding in all serenity”

                   Lady PJ

In this moment there is peace

As the wind forcefully comes

Mesmerized by the waves

Here awaiting the beaming sun

Clouds abound, sensing rain

Even the birds are alarm

Children surprised and amazed

As the gator swims along

One child points her finger

The other jumps around

The birds are on the hunt

The gator’s gone aground

The clouds they tell a story

The day is all but gone

The waves are in a hurry

To hit the shore, what a sound

I sit here in amazement

At all that I can see

This day I took a journey

You took this walk with me

I wish to tell an ending

No ending I can see

Life’s beautiful moments captured

One gift to you from me

The day sucks!

This day sucks…

Written by Philessa Hooks Jenkins

Aka Lady PJ

May 29, 2014

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Copyright 2014

I cried today

Somehow lost my way

Got no words to say

So I fought it
And turned away

Wiped away my tears

Longing to fight 

But lost all the will

Ditched that spear gun
Something inside me
Screamed run!

I sowed up those holes

Caught the blood
Drip... dripping

From my soul

Got deep in the rut

Too damn stubborn to give up

So I’m still here…

Now what?

Had a conversation with God

Thought that maybe he’d heard

Send me a message or a word

But all I'm seeing are birds

Maybe a whisper or a chirp?

Disillusioned, I gave up

Sounding crazy but

I’m emotionally cut
Now What?

The Bird Sings

The Bird Sings

Written by Philessa Hooks Jenkins

Aka Lady PJ

Tuesday, May 20, 2014

The bird sings a joyous song

Yet, my heart shatters on

The sun continues to shine

The day is all but gone

I can see the glory

Contained in brightly colored wings

I know that its symbol is freedom

Still the little bird sings

I hear not the song

I know that it’s contained

Feel only its life flowing

Like blood through my veins

I think that I should smile

To let my colors show

I think the world would hear me

If I sing it from my soul

The bird sings a joyous song

Yet, my heart shatters on

The sun continues to shine

The day is all but gone

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Copyright 2014

Knowledge by Lady PJ

Knowledge
Written by Philessa Hooks Jenkins
aka Lady PJ
April 26, 2014


There's an aching in my soul

Yet, I can't find the key

There's a hole in my heart

You just don't fill for me

This world keeps turning

And I can hardly breath

I imagine myself standing

But am I on my feet?

I walk around in a circular motion

I've covered much ground

Found many things lost

Left many things broken

I see myself

Now I'm wide open...

I know not to where the wind flows

I know not to where the hurt goes

I only know the things I know

What was our worth?

What was our worth?

Written by Philessa Hooks Jenkins

Aka Lady PJ

April 14, 2014 12:32 am

Enraged she held her hands back

With a guine display of dismay on his face

He tried but failed to turn away

Instead... he heard this loud slap

Yet, he stood there unfazed

And thinking to himself

...Am I having a bad dream?

Did this girl just put hands on me?

How can this hurt feel so real?

She wonders will this guilt disappear

Will his love ever be sincere
Was she the fool to even go there?

She longs to make the pain stop

She screams to get the “F” out!

No stop! Pause then this loud shout!

“I need my keys,” With her hands held out

He turns, laughing with his pride in tack

Threw her keys on the floor

Grabbed the small bag he packed

He chose not to look back

She felt so small and yet so tall; conflicted
She watched as he walked out

Her feet now glued to the floor

But somehow she fell down

The time she heard the door as it closed

She struggles to get up

Inside she just hurts

How could he just give up?

What was our worth?

The Wind Keeps Blowing by Lady PJ

The Wind keeps blowing

Written by Philessa Hooks Jenkins

Aka Lady PJ

All Rights Reserved

March 29, 2014

The wind keeps blowing

See how it’s blowing

It flows through every tree

I keep waiting

O’ how I’m waiting

For the wind to blow down on me

I keep hearing that love don’t hurt

It’s a lie!  That pain resides in the deepest

Corner of your mind

If I thought about it

I’d be lying to self

When I…

Tried to walk away

But my heart refused to go

I thought I could release you

From the deepest corners of my soul

But I’m confined

Trapped in these dreams of mine

Now they got me high

But you let me down

The wind keeps blowing

See how it’s blowing

It flows through every tree

I keep waiting

O’ how I’m waiting

For the wind to blow down on me

I was always yours to have

You was always mine

We’ve loved each other

In and out

In and out

In and out of time!

Maya Angelou

I drew a map

You couldn’t see

It was a roadway

That led to me

I laid my head down

At your feet

Said I submit

To loves defeat

Yet as I go now

By myself

I know a truth

If nothing else

I’ve done it all

There’s nothing left

The wind keeps blowing

See how it’s blowing

It flows through every tree

I keep waiting

O’ how I’m waiting

For the wind to blow down on me

Judgment by Lady PJ

Judgment by Philessa Hooks Jenkins

Aka Lady PJ

2/2/6/2014

"Stand tall and be proud of who you are"

                    Lady PJ

Why you judging me?

With that look of disapproval  

And this out and out display
Of dismay illuminating your face

With your eyes looking down at me

Like your way up there on that apple tree

Pretending to be perfect and all so Godly

I’m not the looser that you think

You’re flying high and talking fast

Yet you complain because I’m too slow

Or my thoughts are like the different

Colors of the rainbow

I’m not the rabbit trying to win the race

I’m that turtle trying to take my place

And become something more than

You or I ever thought I could be

Just wait… because my name will

Go down in history

WHAT THEN WILL YOU SAY TO ME?

To You My Love by Philessa Hooks Jenkins

Come Dance with Me written by Lady PJ

“Come Dance with me”

Written by Philessa Hooks Jenkins

Aka Lady PJ

All Rights Reserved

If I told you that life was a game

Would you play with me?

It would be like twenty shades of gray

We don’t need fifty but I promise you

It will be interesting

Our life would be the chess board

Every move invigorating

I’ll dazzle your mind

You’ll find it fascinating

Come dance with me baby

Hold me close to you

Our bodies touching

The connection is like fire… erupting

Don’t you want to play with me?

A lifetime of happiness

Is what I’m offering

This game of life is an opening

Come... come dance with me

"She Stood A Soldier"

Written by Philessa Hooks Jenkins
aka Lady PJ
September 1, 2005
All Rights Reserved
Copyright 2006
"She Stood A Soldier"

Children weeping; don't you cry!
No bed-time stories told tonight
Dreams are broken; hopes that die
Feeling empty deep inside

Who then will tell her story
While She's laying dead?
Who now will show the world
The precious life she lead?

In her mothers arms she was cradled
Her father held her close and tight
She then was taught to be a soldier
She held a gun; ready to fight

She served a world that didn't know her
Proud of the life she led
But all that's left is to grieve her
And understand that now she's dead

Out in the field she stood a soldier
Ready to serve and fight our cause
She proudly gave her life that day
I hope it never fades away
This gift that can never be replaced
So don't you dare forget her!

-Out In the Field She Stood A Soldier!-


     I wrote this piece because of the wars that our country was in; at the time I was thinking about all the female soldiers that weren't getting the respect that I felt they were due.  Because of what I was feeling this poem has special meaning to me. 

To You My Love by Lady PJ

I wonder do you know this love I feel gives me hope

Your smile I adore because that's how you touched me first

I think now can you see me or the woman that I will be

If I had you in my life to adore and love me completely

I long to be the shoulder for which you will lean on

To be the voice of hope whenever you're down or feel alone

To see your smile because it brightens up your eyes

To share with you the morning sun as it rises in the skies

I long to wake in the morning laying in your arms

To hear your heartbeat knowing that I am at home

To know that our love will stand the test of time

A crazy love story that the whole world will admire

Copyright 2013 Philessa Jenkins

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A Killer's Cell

Worry don't leave me now
All dreaming just stopped
Stepped on that line in the sand
I'm in a world wind of doubt
Hopes just a laughable thing
I'm now the board for the darts
The cracks in the mirror prevail
Hands hold the bars of my cell

Bloody hands are all I can see
The faces stare, they're stalking me
I opened the box but lost the key
Grabbed the ax, cut down the tree
Ditched that light inside of me
Now life is just a puzzle piece
Inside this cell is all that will be
For deaths lovely light will set me free

A Killers' Cell
Copyright
by Philessa Hooks aka Lady PJ
1/11/2014